Listening to Sunette using a sentence that contained both ‘self-direction’, and ‘walking discipline’, ( This is the video: 2012: How and Why we ALWAYS Miss the OBVIOUS ) I suddenly was in an experience of fear, going roughly, Oh no, not walking discipline! Arg! So come on Adam, who have I been trying to kid round here, [...]
Posts Tagged ‘desteniiprocess’
Being a Black Sheep is still Being a Sheep
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Desteni, desteniiprocess, discipline, self-discipline on January 30, 2012 | 1 Comment »
After-thought network title: Tales of Mystery and Imagination
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Desteni, desteni I process, desteniiprocess, imagination, mind control, round pegs, square holes on October 30, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
After-thought network title: Tales of Mystery and Imagination Starting with this point of me and ‘imagination’, looking at how in my life I have cherished imagination as a personal asset through which I have believed that I might possibly be able to redeem my apparent worthlessness within my assessment and definition of myself as [...]
Purifying ‘No’ for Simple Effect
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Desteni, desteni I process, desteniiprocess, no, seduction, self deception, Self Forgiveness, self support, word purification on September 27, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
I have a work in front of me now in cleaning up one of my essential tools which is the word ‘No’. This seems like a vast piece of work to do but I will not let that ‘vastness’ be a justification for not making a start. A picture comes up in my mind of [...]
Self Forgiveness and Childhood Dreams
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Desteni, desteni I process, desteniiprocess, dreams, equal money, Equality, nightmare, realisation, reality, Self Forgiveness, self support on September 21, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
Continuing to dismantle this ME-ality, this Mind Energetic Reality, which I have accepted and allowed as Here, Breath by Breath. Waking up, opening up my eyes to face self has been for me a fearful process, a process in which I did not allow myself to see that this connection with fear was showing me [...]
The War against Humans and unforgivability
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Desteni, desteni I process, desteniiprocess, dreams, equal money, Equality, hate, murder, unforgivability, war against humans on August 9, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
Today another dream, the same one really. Again I show myself this same scenario, that I am on the run from a darkness which I have created in my self. Within this darkness a belief: that there is the evidence of my murder of someone in the past, someone I dare not to remember. It [...]
Intoxicated means Poisoned
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged alcohol, Desteni, desteniiprocess, equal money, fun, poison on June 24, 2011 | 1 Comment »
Intoxicated means Poisoned. We’ve had government sanctioned lies. We’ve had government sanctioned debt. We’ve had government sanctioned poverty. We’ve had government sanctioned unemployment. We’ve had government sanctioned greed. We’ve had government sanctioned killing of humans. We’ve had government sanctioned destruction of life. Now for government sanctioned ‘fun’. In the uk the model of [...]
A Secret is a Fear I Choose to Keep.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged desteniiprocess, equal money on April 19, 2011 | 1 Comment »
So I Continue to walk the Desteni I Process. It is through this that I am enabling myself to face myself and my reality. Over the last few posts I have been facing aspects of my fear of myself, and the consequences of this fear in shaping my life. I have changed in many ways [...]
180 degrees
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged desteniiprocess, equal money on April 14, 2011 | 1 Comment »
Facing a blank page, the question is not what do I want to write about today so much as what is going on right now that I very much do not want to write out and see before me? The outer layer of that fear would be the blank page, the pause, those moments [...]
It wasn’t me!
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged desteniiprocess, equal money on April 11, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
It wasn’t me! This is the first lie which I can remember. I was trying to get into the house which my brother had locked me out of. Banging on the glass, I had accidentally broken it. My father said, well who was on the inside and who was on the outside? As the broken [...]
Fear of Self Expression and my fuck-up with ‘Art’.
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged desteniiprocess, equal money on April 10, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
Fear of Self Expression and my fuck-up with ‘Art’. The issue of how I came to develop a leaning towards ‘Art’ and Self-Expression as the general direction I was going to take in life came up recently while I was unravelling a mind-construct. I noticed how it was that I accepted a ready-made definition of [...]
