Over the last week, ten days I have gone into a sort of blankness in which I have ‘seemed’ to run out of all resources of knowledge and information. ‘Gobsmacked’ comes up and makes in my mind a picture of an open mouth which may be a more accurate description of this state which has [...]
Posts Tagged ‘desteni I process’
Fog
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged backchat, blank, bubble, Desteni, desteni I process, Self Judgement on November 16, 2011 | 2 Comments »
After-thought network title: Tales of Mystery and Imagination
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Desteni, desteni I process, desteniiprocess, imagination, mind control, round pegs, square holes on October 30, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
After-thought network title: Tales of Mystery and Imagination Starting with this point of me and ‘imagination’, looking at how in my life I have cherished imagination as a personal asset through which I have believed that I might possibly be able to redeem my apparent worthlessness within my assessment and definition of myself as [...]
Progress
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged competition, consumer society, demonocracy, Desteni, desteni I process, destonians, ego, equal money, Equality, greed, jealousy, mass communication, mind control, progress, realisation, self deception, Self Forgiveness, self interest, self support, war against humans on September 30, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
Progress. Looking at the dictionary definition: Moving forward or onward in space or time, that’s progress. Develop towards something better, that’s progress. So in this world ‘progress’ has been re-styled as an ideal connected up with science and technology. As such it is a desirable, because ‘better’ technology means, what? More effective weapons? [...]
Purifying ‘No’ for Simple Effect
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Desteni, desteni I process, desteniiprocess, no, seduction, self deception, Self Forgiveness, self support, word purification on September 27, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
I have a work in front of me now in cleaning up one of my essential tools which is the word ‘No’. This seems like a vast piece of work to do but I will not let that ‘vastness’ be a justification for not making a start. A picture comes up in my mind of [...]
Self Forgiveness and Childhood Dreams
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Desteni, desteni I process, desteniiprocess, dreams, equal money, Equality, nightmare, realisation, reality, Self Forgiveness, self support on September 21, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
Continuing to dismantle this ME-ality, this Mind Energetic Reality, which I have accepted and allowed as Here, Breath by Breath. Waking up, opening up my eyes to face self has been for me a fearful process, a process in which I did not allow myself to see that this connection with fear was showing me [...]
Walking
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged communication, Desteni, desteni I process, ego, equal money, Equality, reality, sharing, walking on September 19, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
In terms of walking the tools of Self Honesty, Self Forgiveness and Self Correction, I as a Destonian, can call myself a ‘walker’. Seeing realizing and understanding how I am walking my Self through and as the mind, through this Self as Ego, through this total mind experience which I have existed in [...]
Ultimate Brainwashing
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged brainwashing, Desteni, desteni I process, equal money, Equality, mind control on August 10, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
The Self that I can remember as me Here was born into this physical world half-way through last century. This worldwide culture that I was born into has no specific name, though it’s chief characteristics are Acceptance and Allowance. The particular design of this acceptance and allowance which I was born into was according to [...]
The War against Humans and unforgivability
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Desteni, desteni I process, desteniiprocess, dreams, equal money, Equality, hate, murder, unforgivability, war against humans on August 9, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
Today another dream, the same one really. Again I show myself this same scenario, that I am on the run from a darkness which I have created in my self. Within this darkness a belief: that there is the evidence of my murder of someone in the past, someone I dare not to remember. It [...]
Spewage
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged Desteni, desteni I process, equal money, Equality, realisation, self deception, self support, spewage on August 7, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
Walking along, I come across a neighbour, we lean against a wall, looking out across the world, I fall into conversation. That is, I fall immediately and absolutely in a single moment into and as regurgitation and spewage of thought stuff. Just what the fuck am I representing here I ask myself as if from [...]
Power and Secrecy
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged bubbles, Desteni, desteni I process, equal money, power, secrecy, Self Forgiveness, self support on August 5, 2011 | Leave a Comment »
Previous post: what I have been describing is me showing myself through observations of others how it is that I stop myself from changing in order to hang on to myself as I know myself to be, as this tried and tested system of self dishonesty for survival. I have been seeing and experiencing this [...]
