Re: watching Sunette’s video, 2012: Overwhelmed with Tears by Media
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TWCiUgb-d1g
In the movies these moments arrive in me mostly not as tear-jerking but often as that same wave up from the gut and through the chest and up behind the eyes, into the roofs of the eyes. That’s where I stop it, I realize that I have gone into a reaction in my mind according to and with the story and the film, this electro magnetic impulse of information. And here’s this point of resonation, it is the cathartic point, the money-shot, the bit that moved me. That’s what it said on the can it said: ‘it’s good’, ‘it’s very moving.’ That I have ‘been’ moved is the part which I play in actual reality as the consumer of this story. These are the selling points around which the movie is designed. The value to be constantly upheld by the rest of the movie in all of this is that “Emotions are valuable to my life, they are my life, and so I can be and become this energy, it’s good to be moving into energy, as energy as the ego of self interest, and continue to walk my life as I am. It is good, I am moved, I am this energy being, as such I continue to walk this reversal of life as self-interest”.
Anyway, so that was me in this moment this experience of possession in which the energy has gathered up into a wave and come up into the roof of my eyes, ready to jerk off a tear. In this moment here is an opportunity to look at what it is that I am doing here? What point in me is resonating inside this system?
I have made a start at this: so far I have found a few of them. There cannot be that many of them because if there were then the films would lose their broad appeal and then their profitability. It’d be interesting to get a full list of these points as used in the film industry.
The ones which I have found, which would be like the hooks for my system are:
Validation! Contact! Vindication! Rescue! Reconciliation! Recognition! These are some of the points symbolized and presented in story that are telling me unmistakably about the features of my own pre-programmed story which I am living out and in consequence I start resonating when I see and experience on screen these desires fulfilled.
Reconciliation! To me this one seems pretty tired by now, you know, the film starts and almost immediately you are introduced to a character who by the way has got problems with the relationship. Yawn yawn. And then of course you know that amongst all the other excitements in store for you, there will somehow develop the reconciliation.
I am not moved by this one; but I cannot say that the life that I am living is without these features. After all how may countless fuck ups with myself as others have I walked away from and been secretly in desire for all of them each and every one of them to be reconciled?
Looking at this, I am showing myself how I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in a world of conflict, a world shaped by a secret hope of a final reconciliation. The practical solution is obvious; to make actions that bring about the reconciliation which as an ego system I have opposed, in which I reconcile myself to myself as others.
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