2012: Me and expression of me.
Again, tainted with fear, this experience of writing out a string of words according to the language of the mind in which communication of physical reality is programmed to be impossible. The automatic sequences of mind-words only seem to accumulate into a lie, or something tangential to what I attempt to express as me. And so I face myself again within judgement of myself that the life I live within these words is not life at all and therefore within this I accuse myself of being less than who I am.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself as this judgement of me as this expression of who I am as I write these words.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to seek to avoid myself out of fear of who I am as the mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I can possibly somehow stand beside myself separate from myself as the mind rather than seeing and realizing that it is only in standing equal to and one with myself as who I am in all things that I can change myself as the starting point of all these systems which I have allowed.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as more than the words I speak in this moment.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as less than the words I speak in this moment within fearing what these words are telling me about who I am.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that I can ‘have’ an ‘experience’ of physical reality that is not an expression of myself as the energy of the mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself from who I am as energy by using the word ‘the’ in connection to ‘mind’ instead of ‘me’ as my reference to the intimate expression of who I am.
